I am so tired, pun intended, of not sleeping. The worst part is I have two options, as I see it. Maybe three. Option one, try to sleep on my own. Let the brain do the thoughts. Go to cold dark places in my head. Hate myself. Hate everything. Option two, grab a device. Play animal crossing. Scroll on Tumblr. Play Zelda. Read. Do anything to NOT think. Option three, take a pill. Option three is not really an option.
So I go with option two because really I think it’s the better choice. It does make the insomnia worse because electronics make it harder to sleep but they keep me in a better mental place, and my mental health is worse than my physical health so, priorities. I know it may seem like I’m just being stupid and purposely keeping myself awake, and… That’s not wrong. But it’s the lesser of the two evils and I’m sorry to all my friend and family I’ve annoyed and inconvenienced and hurt with my sleep… Pattern. It’s another thing that would keep me up at night if I let it, because hi I’m Danie and I worry about everything and I think everything is my fault and I guilt myself endlessly and unnecessarily and just because I realize I do it, doesn’t mean it’s any easier to stop doing it.
but why don’t people want to hug thor?
thor would be a great hugger
#omg just imagine #hiS HUGE ARMS ENCOMPASSING YOU #AND HE’D BE SO HAPPY TO HUG YOU TOO #YOU’D BE LIKE HEY THOR CAN I GET A HUG I’M A HUGE FAN #WHY OF COURSE TINY MIDGARDIAN #ENVELOPES YOU IN HIS ARMS #HE SMELLS LIKE SUNLIGHT #AND HE LAUGHS WHILE HUGGING YOU #AND HE GENUINELY WANTS TO HUG YOU TOO BECAUSE HE LOVES EVERYONE #THOR IS THE BEST
And then he throws you on the ground, #ANOTHER
Nelson Mandela on the US invasion of Iraq
This is the Mandela that I mourn not the white-washed, sanitized version of a revolutionary figure that aligned with Communists, was part of a group branded as terrorists by Reagan, who continued to voice his opposition to Israel’s apartheid regime and illegal occupation of the West Bank and used armed resistance to fight apartheid in South Africa.
The way white people are exalting him across the political spectrum globally based on his national reconciliation work in South Africa post-apartheid (which did have major pitfalls for non-whites in particular) and erasing his revolutionary past and fight for equality across the globe shows just how ignorant of history they are and how incredibly myopic they are too.
White people are doing to Mandela what they’ve already done to Martin Luther King, Jr., and it makes me sick. If I see one more racist white liberal lionizing Mandela in a way that erases his revolutionary past so their facebook status about his death can serve as their “feel-good” justification of the day for their “liberalism,” I’m going to be sick. And don’t even get me started on the white American conservatives who are now lauding him even as Reagan demonized the ANC and Dick Cheney voted against a resolution that would have urged the South African apartheid government to remove Mandela from prison.
Don’t sanitize Mandela for your white comfort. He’s a hero in many regards, but maybe not for the reasons you might think based on the whitewashing he’s receiving in the media to hollow him out and make him into a puppet figure for racist white liberals and conservatives alike, just like MLK.